homesweethome...ioway

we is back
bev & the koyotekid
return home from a sojourn & pilgrimage & holidaze
to colorado & nude mexico
visiting with sis & bro & rest of eastoftherockies kin

great time moving my sister in colorado springs
from one hacienda to another
some stories to tell
about her driving a moving van ( no stinkin' men to help)
(she had me re-assemblin' her god blessed loom)
won't get into her not being able to get the rear door down'
her daughter riding in the back with door up & boxes bouncin'
& the ramp sliding out & bouncin' up & down on the pavement
cars & trucks going by honkin' & pointin'
........where's the fuzz when you need 'em

great trip to sante fe
touring the plaza downtown
trying to catch me all time favorite indian actor & muzikian
at his newfangled art gallery.........gary farmer
where oh where is mr. nobody
star of powwow highway & skins & coyote waits & smoke signals & the score
he made the mistake of leaving his phone # on the door
so eye called him & of course no answer
told him eye came all the way from ioway
to graze me ponies in his garden
& get his bands t-shirt autographed .......but no show

meet an artist at the sante fe indian flea market north of town
that also writes in the surrealistic vein like me
using eye for i & yet not using i for eye
likes playing with words & sentence structures & freudian lisps(slips)
like you living in your dreams
instead of your dreams living in you

yep we done did bring some (good luck) turquoise back
for the ladies of the family
to make them shine & glow & radiate their feminine charms

think some of us would like to move there
wander the surrounding terrain & ancient indian ruins
some very spiritual places there
....so zayeth the people of the town

taos was a short brief visit
but it is a very easy going & laid back area
very peaceful town & had good energy

enjoyed seeing nature
without everyone mowing their ditches & sloughs & lawns twice a week
didn't see many mow-it-alls........spray-it-alls.....know-it-alls
they let the ditches bloom in sunflowers & let the prairie dogs keep on diggin'

like the ole zaying
if you don;'t know where your going you/ll end up someplace else
good place to spend this 60th year "of earthly heaven"
in the middle of everywhere
body out west.........heart at home.........spirit in euphoric bliss

.............thanxs sweet beverlydearest for making this the best year yet...............

granddaughterbliss............

me doest think
it was w.c.fields who once quipp'd
never follow a child on the stage
cos you'll always bomb & be a flop
their unintentional humor is ten times better than scripted comedy
carissa being a young dazzling damsel at 7 weeks
me being a fossilized greyhaired antique at 60+

eye have had my dazling daze
with the sun&moon&stars
with the wind&rain&clouds
eye have crawled&jumped&flown&crashed
been a pirate/poet/klown/koyote/koward&hero
time to hand over the torch to another generation
to light up the sky

it is good when you can experience your grownup children(erica&carson)
having their children
being part of that third generation
braggin' rights of having three grandchildren..........blayke&marcus&carissa
life doesn't get any better than this
then you can feel what your grandparents felt
love'swarmth heating up a worshipping heart
a worsippingheart fogging up teary eyes

&the night was made for poets & drunks & madmen
& grandfathers who have much more to zay then they have ever zaid
grey&gregarious..............lopsided&loquacious
as eye'm with the woman of my dreams
as she sleeps with the man in her dreams
both of us never very far away
from our wideawake&sleeping thoughts

if the midnight owls don't give a hoot neither do eye
see you on the flipside
where this aging tired skinned man hides a child living inside of him
that carissa can communicate with
& can keep young till its time to go

themidnightkoyotehowlsagain...........

7 Weeks Old & Happy Birthday Grandpa

pre-birthdazebliss..........

tonite eye feel like
eye'm 59.9999999999999999999999
until the big six-o tomorrow

where did all that time go
eye'm weigh over the hill
and as eye gaze back
the hill is long-time-gone

kontempating on bob dylan's lyricallyrics
from the song "my back pages"

"in a soldiers stance, i aimed my hand
at the mongrel gods who teach
fearing not that i'd become my enemy
in the instant that i preach
my pathway led by confusion boats
mutiny fromm stern to bow
ah, but i was so much older then
i'm younger than that now"

ah we art a wee bit anti-authoritorian eye surmise
& know thy self as thy own worst enemy
far to often consciously self destructin'....
ah fellow swabbies a good sailor is a bitchin' sailor'
never trust anyone who doth knot show his or her true kolors
(people aren't against you they are just for themselves)
..like a phoenix one must rise from the smokey ashes
& like the death of the zen caterpiller metamorphize
into the metaphorical butterfly

6 minutes & eye'll be 60
too many candles to blow out
all 9 l(katnip(lives already snuffed out
long in the tooth
blind in the tri-focaled i's
but a poetikal heart that sees what most others miss
my life is most likely 3/4's over......maybe 9/10
......floating unconsciously in wakantanka's holy hand

see you all on the flipside.........a hardrainisgoingtofall
a feather for your thoughts.......byebye

will you ztill needme & ztill feedme when eye'm sixty-4

firstthereisamountain-thenthereisnomoutain

been trying to find the following quotes
scribbled 'em down someplacesomewheresomehow
finally found 'em.........

"the only zen you find on top of the mountain
is the zen you bring up there"
-robert m. pinsis(hope spelling is korrect)

"if you cannot find the truth
right where you are,
where else do you expect to find it"
-dogen

often we see the universe better
with eyes closed gazing through our hearts
then with eyes open looking through our minds
when the lights go out
is the blind person the only one able to really see

a friend used to always zay
"that tomorrow isn't promised to us"
we must make the most out of today
we only have so much time to prioritize our priorities
make positive use of what we often have no control over
life is like a butterfly that lands in our open hand
and as we close it the butterfly flutters away
one day we learn to zay hello then not long after .....we must zay goodbye

oh her lips are sweet
her eyes are deep
her skin is soft

her hands heal the hidden pain
her words speak in sublime poetry
my heart belongs to only her

eye'll miss her long before eye'm gone

a-sleeping-andorf-full-of-wideawake-michael

quotablequotes of the daze..........

many years ago
bev& eye were touring a bookstore
& eye picked up "the little book of zen"
& read the following quote
....what did the zen master zay to the hog dog vender
" make me one with everything"
eye laughed so hard my belly ached for two daze

being a poet ....one enjoys reversing things to see something in new novel way
which most people never think about doing......here goes
....what did the hot dog vender zay to the zen master
can you make me one with everything.....

would a hot dog vender already be one with everything
surely wouldn't be your normal capitalist or hooked on materialism
just maintaining a lifestyle that keeps him at balance & at peace

recently eye had the chance to use this line on a hot dog vender
asking him.... first if he knew what a zen master was......... zaid "kind of"
then eye asked him........if he would make me one with everything
he zaid o.k...........
as eye lifted my arms outstretched to the sky
& then pretending to smear mustard & onions & pickle relish on a hotdog bun

then he handed me a hot dog without everything on it.........

some guys can really screw up a two car funeral................
no sojourn to any kind of earthly utopia for me

(another variation on the zenzational zen line is)

a buddhist approuches a hot dog vendor and zays
"make me one with everything"

he gives the vendor a $20 bill and waits
finally he says "where's my change"

zays the vender : "all change must come from within"

a film that kind of plays with this concept is
"ghost dog : the way of the samurai"
except ghost dog & the hotdog vendor speak different languages yet ztill kommunicate
better than most people who speak the same language but miscommunicate

how fun & bizarre & enriching & uplifting the use of words be.....till next time

heyokakommunikatingkoyoteeeeeeeeeeye

quotablequotes of the daze..........

this one is very inspiring
& makes one walk in their own worn moccasins
wondering who am i........where did i come from......where am i going
maybe why haven't i been more of a humanitarian instead of egotistical

like the ole zaying....everything we do is either a curse of a blessing
a miracle or a crime
making us either end up as criminals or miraclemakers

if you practice what you preach then you don't have to preach........a.o.k....poncho



Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, "My son, the battle is between the two "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."